plugin&play
Music saves our soulsthe Chosen one. | ||||||||
If you let me I could, I'd show you how to build your fences
navigations are the fours lines of lyrics. they are profile, entries, tagboard and links navigations respectively (from the top). |
Wednesday, August 30, 2006, 5:21 pm
sent me til the front gate. carried the things. i really appreciate it. i hate you no more. i feel like crying. you are too kind to me. never will i forget your kindness. i don't know how to thank you. thank you. - je vous aime - - je ne vous oublierai jamais - Saturday, August 26, 2006, 6:05 pm
hmmmmmph. just came home! sheesh. i'm tired. tired. hungry. thirsty. i wanna sleep. eat. sleep. eat. take a bath. oh well. today was great. =)) yet tired. i was happy yet sorrowful. (mcm mane tu?) skipped english lesson, well. sir didnt even teach us. he kept talking about exam. duh. went to musollah.. help the things i could. then, the competition started. the primary contesten were cute. hahax. the way they recite the surahs. hehehe.. that moment, i sat at the back on the folding carpet. listening to the participence reciting.. she was beside me, asked whether have i eaten. i was kinda delighted to see her. and she finally wanna start a conversation although its only a question. went to the canteen as i was famished. just drank the ice lemon tea. with goreng pisang. went back to the musollah. sat on the folding carpet again. listening. and she came in again. with her bag. telling us that she wanna go home. i kept myself in silence. shook her hands. and she pronounced the word "bye" i just smile. thought she could stay. tried to say something yet those words didnt succeed to be spoken. step by step she walked, i felt a little sorrow. let it be. i guess im okay now. maybe i needa wash up a little, and.. SLEEP! wheeee~ nak rasai nikmat katil.. hahax!! toodles~ . i kept myself in silence, but in the end i regreted. Friday, August 25, 2006, 10:41 am
tired. hungry. thirsty. wanna bath. wanna sleep. but gota lots of homework to be done. bleah! hahahax. school was okey. everythings good. lately, everything seems just alrite to me. yay! *smilesss* i dont know. for a thousand times. i felt nothing. i mean really, like no feelings at all. you wont understand. im no longer the person you know. you changed me. (wow) you did all those things to me. i dont care. you just dont understand me. im sorry. i was like a doll. stole by you. cared. loved. cherish. but i guess you misused me in such a way that, you really made me feel like a doll. u used me, did u? whatever darl. i aint gonna think about this useless things. things that shldn't be think of.. duh. p/s : Oh Gosh. prof! how did i sleep in the mrt just now? Lols. tk nak duduk tmpt gitu lagi! malu sey.. hahax. muacx! - sister of mine, i hope what mum and dad said wasn't true. don't go soon. its too soon. i still am trying to accept the fact. but i guess its no use. so if you really are going on the early Sept, i guess, ill just needa accept that. i can do nothing about it. love you. . this heart won't be heal even with the word, sorry . Saturday, August 19, 2006, 8:16 pm
still needa complete some homeworks. went home after those small celebration. walked with amira. talked, laugh.. it was great. left alone when i alighted at raffles place. waiting for the mrt as i sat on the bench. looked around me although theres no one. felt a lil peace, yet sorrowful. nevermind. reached home around one plus. i was okay by that time. each second past, i felt uneasy. no idea why. walked to and fro. in and out to my room. to the hall. to the kitchen. sat on the chair in my room. alone. listen to those musics. tears went down my cheeks. i cant deny that im sad. oh well. its seven thirty. she appeared online. delighted. yep. dad went in my room. yes dad. im okay. i really am. insyaAllah. dont worry. thanks dad. maybe you're the only one who could see the difference in me. love you dad. .time passes that fast. i still need time to face the reality. Thursday, August 17, 2006, 8:31 pm
swoooosh!! kehehehe.. hello hello. today was great. yeah okey. thats the only word which can describe the -yayness- in me. wakakaka.. went back home like usual with prof. sekolah petang! mcm primaryy.. kehehehe, sukeee seyyy. tak rase ngantok terus. energetic lagi! hahaha.. i really really miss those days when i was in primary 6. those memory was never forgotten. i can still remember where we, four of us. hidayah r, hilwani, hanisa and i sat on the back row. we ate, we talked, we played, we slept! hahaha.. when the teacher's teaching. hahaha! i know thats totally bad. Lols, but well. belajar tetap belajar, pass exam tetap pass. hahax. =D the year 2005 was really a memorable year to me. well, whatever it is .. its over. all of those are memories. that can't be forgotten. =)) - thank you for giving me some space. i appreciate it, but maybe i dont need it. thank you. et je vous aime toujours
Wednesday, August 16, 2006, 4:06 pm
felt so happy seeing my friends and the teachers. three days isn't short. it could be as long as three years. i wasn't sleepy today. not that bad. things were just great and interesting since i missed alot of those fav subject of mine. all i think of was to study. yeah really. well i guess it was fun. on that little moment. school's over just like that. as usual, we eat before going back home. took bout half or an hour to finish up the food while talking and laughing. i was fine at that moment. the feeling of happiness was still in me. but just for a second, it changed to mood in me. i just can't explain how sad or dissapointed or angry i am. i was lost. by then, i told myself not to think bout it. i kept myself in silence where no one knows i was crying inside. reached back home. drop my beg. and use the computer. still keeping myself in silence because i know thats the best solution. just wanna be happy as always. but that damn single reaction, was really a total letdown. p/s : prof, im sorry okay. its not that i dont wanna tell. i promise, if im ready.. i'll tell you for sure cuz i know your the one and only 'three in one' of mine who understands me better than anyone do. oh help, i need a penknife! someone please give me one. .don't ever take things for granted, cuz you'll regret til you die. Sunday, August 13, 2006, 8:43 am
sore eyes. kwang3. its my first time having this sore eyes. it hurts. really. didn't come to school this morning. went to the clinic and the doctor gave me the medical leave till tuesday. i don't know whether i could go to school on monday yet. i hope i could. just ain't gonna sit at home doing nothing, i'd rather go to school. lols. today's just fine. i guess theres lots of homework to be done. didn't get to see her. them. but nvm, we'll meet soon if my eyes are better. thought of studying at home, but i didnt even look through any school books of mine. hahax. my body gets weaker, my eyes gets more painful. my head get more headache. thought i wouldn't think of the unnecessary things cuz i tot its a waste of time. but somehow i just can't get those things out of my mind. hmmm.. sometimes when i remember about what happened. i can't accept it. if you can't, neither do i, right? well. i felt like as though i didnt exist in your world. you were mad at me. you really are. but all of a sudden, you said that you weren't anymore. and i expect me to forgive u that easily? of all the things you did to me, you won't even bother to understand me. and yet you wanna say all sorts of things? is that fair to me? No, it isnt. is it true that we can't get along with each other? -oh, i need an answer from you. could i accept the way you are, once more? -oh, i don't have the answer for that. .weakness conquers the entire of me. Thursday, August 10, 2006, 7:35 am
urrrrrrrrrghhhh. tk phm btl la dgn orang2 ni semua! tanye je pon bleh sampai mcm ni? mepek kan. tk msk akal, tk logic! mepek mepek mepek!! damn ah. bodoh. tanye bnyk2 buat ape? kan skrg da jadi mcm ni. salah sape? ct gak arh kan. abeh skrg mcm ni. tk phm ar. tk phm. tk phm. tk tau ah ape jadi. sudah ah.. buat hal sendiri lagi bagos. OK. NVM. FINE. IS THAT ONLY WHAT YOU CAN SAY? WAT THE HELL. and another you, you're mentally ill i say. Monday, August 07, 2006, 3:20 am
but i couldn't. i woke up around 8.07am. wash up, clean up my room, finish up the struggling little homework, thought of eating bread with tuna, but theres no bread! hahax. then, i decided to switch on my lappy. waiting to start the window and so on. when i signed in, she was there. im abit hestitate about her typing. but its okey. since she wanna do it. i'll let her be. hehe.. its 8.30am then. maybe she started earlier. when i asked her, she said she's done with three ques. =)) ct tau perasaan akak. bingit, penat.. susah. but yet, akak tk putus asa. akak mcm semangat gitu. sangat2 lar.. imagine one is typing 30 ques using a character map? hell, No. till now, its 12.18!! and yet you're still trying to finish it up, no matter what. you're done with eighteen. a little more to go. honestly, i'm so proud of you. i really am! keep it up !! hehehe.. you're Awesome. Sunday, August 06, 2006, 5:02 am
mcm biase je ar.. takot2 semua ada. hahax. cume, i don't quite understand about the new topic ar. but i wil try my best to understand it. then td time b.m. cikgu kelakar sey! mcm2 die cite. gerek plak. haha.. nari, kakak balik! kwang3. ni baru vacuum bilik. hahaha.. td balik sorang2. okey je, mcm biase gak, tdo! Lols. penat ar, ngantok lg. sakit kepale. tp insyaALLAH da okey ar. dayah dua hari tk datang. boring tau! tk kecoh2. hehe.. miss ur laughter. =P tp tkpe, monday mesti datang tau! nak tgk awk sihat walafiat. tk nak sakit2 lagi. heeee. skrg, da tk kuase nak pikir2 pasal bende yang tk perlu dipkr. nak try tumpukan pkran, otak ni pat bljr je. exam da dekat.. nak prepare ar. nak try score better than mid-year nye. insyaAllah. ct just maintain calm ar. tk nak emosi2. hahax. happy2 je da cukup. =)) kalo pape jadi pon, da ready nak menghadapinye. ceywa! Lols. okey lar, till here je. - let her be. let me go. i'm happy. - . don't care about her. leave me along. i'm delighted . Tuesday, August 01, 2006, 3:46 am
it was raining heavily when we took my uncle's cab to the coach place. i wasn't that excited cuz i was sick. stomachache, headache... duh. i just endure. so then, we reached at the Yong Peng. my appetite's changed, so i thought of eating mee rebus. it was damn yummy. haha. when i finished the food, i talked to my brother then suddenly i realised " wat the hell! theres a fly in my mee rebus!! " ROFL. thank God the fly 'swam' in the mee rebus after i finished eating. the bus started to move, in the coach i didnt even sleep till we reached there about eight. i tried my best to sleep, closed my eyes, yet it won't work no matter how i force myself to. so i let it be. i just sat and look outside the window. green trees.. the clouds.. the highway.. cars. and so on. finally, we reached at my sisters place. slept there for a day. next morning, every each one of us was about to get ready for the 'konvokesyen'. i could say that i was excited seeing my sister getting ready with her friends. as we all, their families went out later. we walked to the collage. it wasn't that far. it was morning, i could feel the breeze and the fresh air. to me, words cant describe how i felt when i saw them going into the 'konvokesyen' hall with the green graduate clothes. the song makes the effect more powerful. lols. it was really wonderful and awesome. i swear. all i was thinking on that time is, " i wanna be like them. i wanna wear those clothes and i wanna graduate like my sister. " there were maybe hundreds or thousand of peeps. my bro and i went to the place where theres a television connected to see them reciving the certificate on the stage. it was my sisters turn! Lols. she was cute! really. hahas. i could see her nervous. but with her smile, she was Sweet! lol. from that moment, i realised that i can be like them. only if i destroy the lazyness in me and start studying smart. my dad use to told me that. my dad booked the coach at 12mn. my bro and i was excited as it was out first experience riding a bus on midnight and will be arriving in singapore at dawn. it was 12mn as we board the coach. the driver drove damn fast. i was a lil scared yet i tried to calm myself down. as the first time experience, what i can say is that.. theres nothing much to do in the coach on night time compare to the day time. the highway was so dark, so was the coach. i could hardly see myself. the moment i look out the window, i see nothing execpt the lights of cars which was like a flash of lights. i spend my time sleeping. hearing to the songs. thinking about my sister, them, friends.. and school. but soon, we reached singapore and it was about five in the morning. i felt deadly tired, although i slept in the coach. till then, im home. slept for hours on my comfort bed with my fav pillow. hehe.. to the Sister of mine, Congratulations! of all the hard work you've done.. now you've graduated. keep up the good work! hehehe.. you really are the best and the one who encourages me since the day im in primary one. i'll pray for you always. you've done ur first step, Diploma. and the next aim for you is the Degree. =)) and Congrats to all her friends and to all the KUIS pupils who graduated yesterday. till here. love u sister! |
thedeceptionist
Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.06091993. from the soil, it becomes flesh from flesh, it consists of organs and with a heart that pumps, i live. i need no special human. nor do i need an extrodinary man. i just need Allah for all of these are |
partnersincrime
Lovelies; Nisa♥ 'Aisy♥ Syahidah♥ Dayah♥ Myra♥ Belle♥ diva Nadhzi♥ Tiqa YEE♥ Nul♥ Families; Abang. Doctor Hisham. Scientist Elies. Fadiilah. Fauziyah. Haslina. Hazwani. Zalifa. XX Earthlings; 'Adilah Saadon. Athrun Zala. Ha. Nabilah-Nadiah. Tan Nurul E'zzati. Sister Aidah. Ukht 'Adilah Watib. Ukht 'Alimah. Ukht 'Atiqah Sulaiman. Ukht Adilah Syukor. Ukht Ainul Mardhiyah. Ukht Aisyah Nazron. Ukht Athifah. Ukht Atiqah. Ukht Atiqah Zakaria. Ukht DEJAH. Ukht Fathiah. Ukht Fa-RENG. Ukht Hida. Ukht Khazanah. Ukht Na-DENG. Ukht Syafiqah Basiran. Ukht Syahirah Aiman. Ukht Tan Nurul Hafidzah. Ukht Radhiah Mentor. Ukht REM-iza. Ukht Zeelah. XY Earthlings; Abang Haddyy. Tamlikha Khamsani. Muhammad Hanif. backtoyesterday
+ 050210sweet dreams.Turn the lights onEvery night I... + 281001crawl.lately i've been at the bottom side of... + 180110bondings.after such long period of timegivin... + 121109its more.i sat for my final paper.as my hear... + 231009even though.my heart jumps with joy,my lips ... + 051010right.i screwed everything, didnt i?i potrey... + 041009i dont want to fall for it.im back again, bu... + 170609you'll be back. to my dearest Seniors,kakJam... + 150609its a present.for what i've heard,the past i... + 050609its home.i could hardly bring myself to slee... wheni'mgone
+ December 2005 + January 2006 + February 2006 + March 2006 + April 2006 + May 2006 + June 2006 + July 2006 + August 2006 + September 2006 + October 2006 + November 2006 + December 2006 + January 2007 + February 2007 + March 2007 + April 2007 + May 2007 + June 2007 + July 2007 + August 2007 + September 2007 + October 2007 + November 2007 + December 2007 + January 2008 + February 2008 + March 2008 + April 2008 + May 2008 + June 2008 + July 2008 + August 2008 + September 2008 + October 2008 + November 2008 + December 2008 + January 2009 + February 2009 + March 2009 + April 2009 + May 2009 + June 2009 + October 2009 + November 2009 + January 2010 + February 2010 takeabow
An accidentality production Inspiration from DancingSheep & BONBON:D |
theventingmachine
|